Side Note

Completed four 5ks, one 10k, two half marathons, and one full marathon while my husband was deployed…oh, and six classes for my master’s degree. I think I’ve successfully kept myself insane/stressed out/crazy busy. I need my life back…and by life, I mean my husband.

Sorry for the short posts lately. I've decided that I need to post more "thoughts" on my blog (since no one reads them) then on Facebook. Why you ask? You know how, when you were little, you thought it would be so cool to be able to read peoples' minds? Ok...maybe you didn't, but I did. Unfortunately, since Facebook has entered my world, I no longer think this. And I'm sure people have no desire to read everything I'm thinking as well. So that's why.

Anxiety

I've always been a very intense/uptight person. I hate everything about it...but unfortunately there's nothing I can really do...unless I want to take some sort of pill...or take up yoga. :)

My A Type personality has had both positive and negative effects. The positive side is that I'm always extremely organized and up to date on everything. The negative side is that I'm always stressed. This stress often takes a toll on my body...often in the form of bad break outs. Relaxing is not easy for me. I always feel like there is something I need to be doing.

Although I do believe I have a very light form of anxiety, I don't think it's anything to worry about (which I do very well, by the way) :). If you know me well, you'll notice small symptoms of this anxiety. Josh likes to make fun of me (I'm thankful that he can laugh it off). I've never had a panic attack, but sometimes I do notice extreme nervousness. This can really happen anywhere, but for some reason, usually happens when I'm driving. Every once in a while, I will experience what feels like shortness of breath. I feel the need to take long, deep breaths 3 to 4 times a minute. Thankfully, this usually only lasts for a few days. I also have nervous habbits such as popping my wrists and neck and consantly playing with my hair. I'm always extremely tense in my shoulder and neck area.

Ok...I promise I'm normal people. This is about as strange as I get :).

Where Can I Complain?

Oh, I'll do it here. No one reads my blog anyway :).

I don't really want to complain...but I do need to vent every once in a while. Josh just told me that his return date has been pushed back. Ok....so we've been doing this long enough where I KNOW not to expect him when the Army says to expect him. Things change and, for the safety of these soldiers, dates are often pushed back. I get it. But that doesn't mean I'm not disappointed. I've been waiting so long to have my husband back and a few days seems like a month at this point. I'm just tired of waiting. I understand that I'm an army wife and this is my life, but I'm HUMAN people!!

Ok....rant over.