Emotional Roller Coaster

I feel like I've been on an emotional roller coaster for days...no weeks...who am I kidding? It's been months. The meds definitely are not helping! My poor husband has to put up with another month of me injecting myself with who knows what. I may sound like I'm complaining but I'm really not. I'm excited to have the opportunity to give myself shots in my stomach. Josh and I decided to do an IUI in January before he left for deployment. I went to the doctor the other day to get this started and was so disappointed to hear him tell me that I probably wouldn't be able to do the IUI this month due to a large cyst. He said to come back into the office in a few days to check the cyst. I usually see the glass half empty (I'll chalk that up to my string of disappointment after disappointment) so I went back to the doctor expecting disappointment....but I was so happy to hear that the cyst went down and we were still able to try this month! I know God's timing is planned but I sure hope this is it!

If not, onto an IVF we go....

I thought I'd share just a few items that those with infertility will only understand. Next month will be 3 years of TTC. And next month Josh deploys for the third time. I'm thinking I may need some extra chocolate next month.

Financing a baby

So Josh and I had another consult with our fertility specialist today. This one was to go over plans before Josh deploys. We can go three different ways. IUI in January, Laparoscopy in January, or IVF in February. Let me explain. We basically have one more chance to TTC before Josh deploys. After that we're out of luck for 9-12 months...thus the IUI in January. The Laparoscopy is a surgery that is done to look inside my tubes to see if any scaring is left from my ruptured appendix 20 years ago. I've already had the dye test (HSG) which came up clear, but there is still a chance of scaring. Obviously, if I do have scaring, then the IUI would be pointless. And IVF is the third option. Just saying that scares me (due to $$$).

A little side note about how much we're about to dish out with all of these.

IUIs are $500 a pop. That does not include the medication which can cost up to $450.

The Laparoscopy should be covered....although my doctor isn't completely sure about that.

And here comes the fun one. IVF would be roughly $15,000. Ouch! Basically, we could buy a nice car with that one.

I'm not sure who has this kind of money sitting around. I mean, I know that some people do, but we're far from that. So we have to make a decision on what we're doing by Monday.

So do we do the Laparoscopy in January and miss out on doing an IUI before Josh leaves? Or do we do an IUI in January with the chance that it could be a waste of money due to scaring? Or do we discount both and do an IVF with money that we don't have? Our doctor seems to think that an IVF is the best option since we've tried multiple rounds of clomid, Letrozole, and injections.

Decisions....decisions.....

New Kitchen....under $500

I've always dreamed about renovating our house. It was built in 2001 and you can tell. Oak cabinets, oak doors, brass door knobs... Unfortunately time is not on my side. Josh and I are often gone 12 hours a day and are exhausted by the time we get home.

We've wanted to redo our kitchen since we moved into our home in March. But with the lack of time and money, we kept putting it off. Josh finally decided that the kitchen project was going to be done while he was on leave. I fought him, not wanting to dish out the money or the time. Now I'm happy he put his foot down on this one :).

He spent long hours (and I helped when I wasn't working) refinishing the cabinets, adding knobs, and installing a new sink. The light fixtures had been done a few months ago. Altogether, this kitchen project cost us about $500. Below are the before and after pictures. I'm so happy and actually enjoy being in my kitchen now!
                                

 Before with old light fixtures

 

  Before with new light fixtures

After