Monday, January 28, 2013


Just a little update:

I talked to my doctor Friday afternoon and found out that my progesterone is low which means that I'm not ovulating the way I should. So he started me on clomid which is supposed to force me to ovulate. I've heard from different friends that clomid can make a girl pretty emotional (poor Josh).

It was definitely frustrating news to hear that my progesterone is low on top of only having one working tube. Just hoping they don't find anything else wrong with me and that we can focus on getting some answers. :)

Friday, January 25, 2013

Keeping Faith

After two years of keeping my mouth shut, I've decided to start blogging about my fertility issues. I don't talk about it for many reasons. I feel like this is something personal between my husband and I. Often struggles are hard to discuss with other people (especially since most people can't empathize with us). Mainly I've decided to blog about this for myself. I want to be able to look back at my posts in the future and hopefully see the reason why Josh and I have to struggle through this.

I really can't explain the feeling of disappointment each month when I get my period. It's a deep hurt that often leads to anger and questioning. Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry with God. I completely understand that God has a plan for me. I've been so blessed and don't ever take this hurt out on God. I'm just angry that it's been so hard....more like a frustrated anger.

I read a quote that I need to memorize for these frustrated moments:

"The hardest part of faith is the last half hour. When it looks as if God will not answer, we give up and go on to something else."

I struggle with wanting to give up. Josh always tells me that it just isn't time yet. I wish that I had that good of an attitude. I have faith that God's will will be done. It's just really hard not knowing that will.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

2013? Seriously?!

Am I the only one who can't believe it's 2013? I'm always amazed at how fast time flies (especially the older I get). I just wanted to a do a quick recap on the last few weeks and a small look into the new year.

Josh, Zoey, and I traveled to New Mexico for Christmas. We had fun visiting with family and friends. While we were there, we had some pictures taken of the entire family. Due to family members moving, we weren't sure when we would all be together again and thought it would be a good idea to take a second to capture some pictures.

We spent a quiet new years eve with wonderful friends. I feel so blessed to be able to ring in the new year with my husband, especially since I know many don't have that opportunity.

This upcoming year is already busy - thankfully for me since I love to stay busy! :) I'm currently taking my 7th class in my master's degree and hoping to finish up the degree this year. Yay! I love this degree and so happy that I've had the opportunity to take it. I'm also blessed to have a wonderful husband who has basically paid my way through this degree. I refuse to take out any more student loans!

I'm also continuing my love for running and have signed up for a half marathon in April with two good friends. I'm so excited to run this half...especially since I'm shooting for a new PR! Wish me luck :).

Other than that, Josh and I just have lots of hiking, camping, skiing, and backpacking plans (along with a trip to STL).

Cheers to 2013!